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My anniversary is coming up soon. No, not getting married, that’s … uh, sometime. I really need to check with my wife to see when that is, and hopefully when I ask her, it’s far enough from the actual date that she forgets that I asked when it actually rolls around.

But, no, it’s my anniversary of getting brought on board at this wacky place.

Yep, by around the time you read this, I will have surpassed 33 years at this job, meaning I’ve spent more than 62% of my life here. It’s the only real job I ever had and, truthfully, the only job I ever wanted.

And that’s kind of an angle of my life I don’t explore much in public, because the whole thing seems kind of absurd. I mean, it’s one thing to be a fan of something that shapes your worldview such that you eventually follow along a similar path. But it’s entirely another thing for that path to lead to the exact same thing that shaped that view to begin with.

I started with being a fan of GRM, then called Auto-X, and reading the mostly black-and-white magazine in the back of the driver’s ed car in high school and letting it define my worldview on how cars were enjoyed and interacted with. And it went to being one of the guys who helps steer the very same ship that took me on that journey.

It’s … frankly, it’s kind of imponderable, and I’m never sure how to write about it when this time of year comes around.

So I called a friend who shares a similar predicament.

Matthew Setzer grew up in Montana, but his passion for performance eventually took him to California, where he earned an MFA in experimental sound from CalArts.

A primary catalyst for his love of avant-garde music came when barely out of middle school: Matthew’s brother shared some music from industrial pioneers Skinny Puppy.

Their sound guided him through his own journey of study and practice, resulting is his current status as a multi-instrumental musician, sound designer, instrument builder and performing artist.

You can currently catch him on tour as the live guitar player for … wait for it … Skinny Puppy.

So, you can probably see why we get along.

“Yeah, it’s like going to one of those fantasy camps for baseball or whatever, but it’s real,” Setzer tells me of his now near decade with the band as their live guitar player on what will be the final tour of their 40-year history.

“When I played my first show ever, those first few minutes between when I went…